Melanoma is out to get me. I just found another lump around the corner from my armpit sort of on my shoulder. Now, that's 3 I can feel. One on my side, lower armpit, and one right in my armpit by my old scar, and now this one. Holy shit.
I don't know what is going to happen, but I know this will not be fun.
I'm so sick of this. Why couldn't I have been one of the lucky ones?
Edited to add: I was going to delete what I just said because now that I am a bit more lucid I realize how ridiculous and self-pitying I am being and I'm rather embarrassed for myself. But then I figured, that was real in that moment. Just an example of the emotional swings. I had a bath and while am totally heartbroken and terrified, my overwhelming mood right now is: Bring it on bitch! I'm taking you down!